SWEET EIGHTEEN

so..my birthday is over...
first,i gonna talk bout my birthday part one..
oh well..as usual i packing my own stuff and preparing going to school...
and i go for a check for my message because i'm wondering who will sent birthday wish to me..haa..
too bad..as i reply one of my friend and i got a bad news from her..her father pass away so urged..=(
after heard this news from her,i was moody at all..

ok..recess time..
i got a expression from my senior..
and so,he ask me to look for him later..
and then i feel curious why???why??
at last,i find him after finish my breakfast??i think..
haha..whatever..
he gave me present and i was OMG!! i fell so suprise and happy of course..haha..
but i'm so embrassing tat time because he is a boy ,not everyone knew i was close with him actually..hee..everyone was looking at him giving the present to me..
oh gosh~ i dunno where should put my face..haha..next i receive a suprise again,my sceret admire frm 6r2 wish me happy birthday by giving me lolipop and a card to me..awh~how sweet it be..haha..still wondering who is it??hmmmmm...
but i did OVERWHELMED AT TAT MOMENT..lol..

next..one of my friend PATRICIA CHONG kept saying happy birthday to me..
One of my classmates shout and he said 'cindy ur birthday ah??'
Arghh!!!! i feel like wanna puch patricia lor..haha..but i not tat angry ...hehe
and all of my friend sing happy birthday song to me..
tats the best present i had for my sweet eighteen..^V^
thanks you lower six...love u guys so much..haha..

my bithday haven end yet...
the worst and bad memory i had..
my ex bring her girlfriend into the pub..and they just start their relationship during my birthday..is really hurt to me..is like tats the present he gave to me..=(
The first time i heard he sang is after we broke up..
at the moment all my happiness had gone...
i cry inside the toilet..everyone was kept looking for me and i cry like SO PO..
haiz....i even drunk until some of my brother friend carry me to the car..and the most made me embrssing is i kept hug someone..well is boy but i'm not remmber who is it..ok..i know i cheap..i admit tat..i feel so bad at all..but it wont happen again and ever..

EVERTHING GETTING WORST AND MESSY

~sigh~
why in the earth i can't focus in this examination???
everthing gettting worse this october..
everytime i want to study but something bothering in my mind..
COME ON..i need to consious!!! i should know the hill is high,if i try to jump i will dead..
is the same situation as i want to figure out something even though i know the answer..........stupid me
how could i concentrate?? oh GOD...please let someone to be my pill..i need a pill right now..
i'm so suffer for this october..=( my heart was stung for a moment..
i was like just being punish by GOD for being lying people..yea,i admit that thou..hee

guess is just this for today
feel sleepy right now..
and gambateh to myself..=(

JAPANESE EVENT

watashiwa cindy des..
suppose to update my blog last friday.. but i kinda exhausted doing some nonsense stuff... haha..now going to the topic first...

is JAPANESE EVENT!!!
Location:Kota KinabaluHigh School
Actually i'm not so that excited cause japan is not my hmmm...favorite place?? i think so...hehe THey coming to our school..and the most weird thing that i dint expect is our stupid suck school organise a Japanese kursus for us and is expecially for lower six..haha i feel so lucky guys... well... this japanese kursus is teach us to learn how to comunicate with japan girl or boy by japanese word..
is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fun... i feel high when i was at the stage singging with them..and the most famous japanese guy staring at me long time.(1 min) haha..OMG..i sooooooo happy..gosh~ too bad i have no picture sharing with u guys...CHU KHUI LI!!!!! PIC PLEASE!!!! haha
luckliy i have some pic share although is not a human...hehe.. Enjoy..


Here is the exchange present that i get from them..haha
-this is kinda japan honey biscuit..is so sweet..^.^



















this is fan.i think is a culture of japan..this is the best present
for me to kept memory..hee


















and this is a japan sweet,tastelike blueberry..well is blueberry..-.-

PLEASE LISTEN TO MY EXPRESS

MY PERSONAL
I love to write english,so please dont blame on me when i'm writing all these in
broken english.
I wish to be more mature, but i enjoy the feel of being childish.. O____O. Omg
I wish i have more new friend but they are getting far than me..
I wish that i will be a sucessful girl,but i dint work hard for it..am i right my friend??^v^
I never hide my love feeling..did u know why?? cause is very obvious if i love someone even though i didnt told anyone..
I hate to update my blog cause......i dunno why..=.=
When I warn you that I am getting angry now, stop doing that! or else I will really get angry..
When i fall in love with someone,i will treat him like the feeling of the life of prince..



LOVE
Love can hurt,but the hurt can easily be turned into love. So,if the person are hurt because of me mean u fall in love me..
Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met..

I DID IT

FINALLY FINALLY!!
i did it...har?! u must wondering what i saying..
is just i knew how to add link to my blog post..
HAHAHAHAHAHA..(crazy me)

so.....

is a long way to go..
now,i would not get struggle!!
i can update my blog everydays..every minutes..every second..LOL

i think tats all for today...^^

SHOCK

Today,weird thing came to me.
is began like this........

while i was playing pet society within facebook..
i receive an e-mail...someone has add me in my msn messenger and i dunno who is it..
i was act like normal chating with "HIM" cause i thought he is my friend..

But then,here is the point.

He was asking me either i at home nor at cyber.
i lie to him and i said i was at cyber.
i dont even sure who is him so i lie to him.
He ask me for CYBERSEX!!
firstly i was odd,something came out my mind sunddenly.
i saw this word and a story about cybersex at newspaper once in a blue moon.
YUCk..what wrong with him?
don try to fool me around..............
i know what was it..
it can be emotionally dangerous even i'm not in a committed offline and risking
infidetly.

i wish i could tell someone about this..
no one can help me.
u know,is so embrassing if i told my family.
so i release my emotion and express bout my expression right here.

FUTURE?

so.........is been long time i haven update my blog.
here come a holidays again......
many things happen to me this year...
happy,exhausted,frustated all came to me this year..
i feel like i became older and older year by year....
what will be my future?
is it came toward itself....
is all depend on GOD......
is time to accept the fate.