Apologize

Sorry for ignoring you recently.
Sorry for skipping you.
Sorry for my behavior.
Sorry for treating you cool when you are seriously talking to me.
Sorry for pushing you away sometimes.
I was busy and selfish for not realize your feelings.
I know sorry can't help much sometimes.
Please forgive me for neglect you. :(

他的笑容

当你爱上一个人，你会真心得想要他开心。

他开心，你会特别的开心。难道这就是爱？：)
你不需要他特地为你做些东西。
你只要他开心，就已经能包含我一切一切想拥有的。
他的开心的力量对我很大。
因为他的开心是非常难寻找。
想要他真心得笑容，快乐得笑就可以了。
我并不要求富贵，也不需要钱。只要他的笑。

我能带他欢喜吗？
我能找回他的快乐吗？
我能让他幸福吗？
要是他真的开心，我会像左边的相片这样高傲的飞。：D

以前的心声与现在的心声

这是我以前的心声，只想让你知道。

你陪著我的時候想著她

你聽不見我的心在喧譁
明明我知道 卻裝作沒想法
是善體人意還是傻瓜

你陪著我的時候想著她
你看不見我的笑多受傷。

这一部份完完全全表达我的心声。

接下来，
这是我现在的心声，我要你知道。：D
现在，当然我一直都相信你。希望你相信我相信你宝贝。

我相信你对我的爱。少少啦。：)
我也相信你已经慢慢的抹掉你的过去。
相信你已经从寂寞世界跑出来。从新开始。
你已经真实的表达出来。在不知不觉中。
这就是我想要的。
自然的。^^
和你相处这些日子，我看得出你的真。
相信我，你是个好男人。不要再认为自己没有用。
现在的你只是无能为力。

最后。我爱你。

Welcome to my life

Hey!! I'm back and here come my mood again..>__<
Welcome to my life.I gonna express everything inside my mind.
The cruel me. Dun be shock.

Why I can't be perfect like everyone ?
My life was so damn complicated!!
You never know it !!
I can be what I want if I wanna to.
Is just I was so lazy to approach it.
Nobody ever gave what I wan, I have to grab everything all by myself. Always!! DAMN IT!!
People dun help sincerely.
Helping people doesn't mean people will appreciate it.
If you are the lucky person and the person I appreciate, I help much and sacrifice everything that I got just to get your happiness. You will never know how deep I sacrifice.And when you knew it, you will totally get shock and never think I'm gonna doing that way or maybe even touch? haha. =X sorry, let me ss for a while. xP
I quite something because I was thinking.
Thinking why. When I still can't think of answer. My mood went down.

To be honest my lovely friends,parents and my boyfriend, I worry a lot !!! :)
Dun ask me what I'm worry.
Figure out yourself better.
I dun ask sometimes because when I ask..The questions will be non-stop.
And so, I been yell back or being scold. :( Maybe the questions I ask were nonsense.
After being scold or yell, my tear began to fall. ALMOST. I control myself because I dun wanna people think that I'm weak.
SO, I never ever gonna ask questions anymore.
I figure out answer myself until I accept the fate. :(

My appearance might disspointed when saw me the first time.
Picture and real person are totally different.
So what!!?? I born this way. :)
Who you wanna blame? my parents or me?
I dun used to make up.
so, welcome to my life. Accept the real me.
If you can't accept then dun talk to me.
Because your emotions on your face are obvious!! Dun show the fake of you cause I knew it.

That's my mood for today.

Did u know? (Third post)

I was not really in a good mood today.
I can't stop typing and typing.
So, I wrote three post continually and that makes me feeling better than preciously.
All because of you kid!! you running my day. >____<

My dear.
After being with u..I think I'm getting to know more and more about your personality and bla bla bla.
Before knowing you as deep as now..I thought you were a person who had a bad attitude like smoking..going to pub or clubbing and bla bla bla or two face people to anyone or everyone or treat person badly. But, I was wrong. Can't believe you're kind. xD Dun be happy first, I haven complete my word....you just kind sometimes la..xD My dear..dun be sad first...I haven complete my word..yes..you were kind to me but kind to your friends sometimes la..haha..get what I mean? If you dun understand..then dun ask me..think yourself..xP

Did u know is so damn hard to predict what's on your mind ??

Did u know you look cute so so much when your face turn red?? OMG..I think I never forgot you look damn cute the day your face turn red. =X That day only la. xD haha..dun sad la..you always look cute but that day was the perfect cute. :) smile la..hehe

Did u know I love to see you when you get active? babe..I know you do not know that.:D

Alright..that's all.

Tough (Second post)

There were always a tough question inside my brain.
There were just so many question marks pop out.
Searching for reason or answer by myself could be my bad habit or maybe it could be good if I found the accurate answer.
Sometimes you should ask if you wanna to know the answer.
I used to ask and what I got mostly was facing the consequences.
For me, Figure out by myself and solve problem all by myself are much better than everything.
In the end, I dun choose to ask but get it done all by myself.
At least, I can learn somethings and analysis people surrounding me.
A tough question could be a challenge for me.
Unfortunately, to search for the answer could be so troublesome or even emo.
So what? I'm trying to be tough so that I can breathe and stand up next time.
Could I be tough? I hope I can.
I dun wanna to be a useless person.

I hate Kid (First post: )

YOU! yes,you!!

Get out of my house immediately!! or else I'm not going to be kind to you.
You know how fierce am I if you step on my tail.
I hate kid so much!!
Kid makes my temper getting higher and higher.
I just can't stand their attitude.
Hard to communicate with them.
Can you just stop being noisy and act yourself like queen and king inside my house!!?
If my temper was over my limit, then you're face the hell.
GO TO HELL.

Without music

I love music.
When I feel sad..I stick with music.
When I feel happy..I stick with music too.
There wasn't any reason why I stick music so much but because I born this way. :D
If there is a chance..I would learn piano or guitar.
If there is a chance..I would like to place myself in music world.
If there is a chance..I would like to learn music oversea.
Is that possible?
Too bad..everything is just ''if''. SIGH~
I can't live without music !!

What's on my mind

The day had come.
Finally,we met.
Sadly,everything doesn't went smoothly as I expect.
Sorry,blame on me for not planning properly.
Our dating wasn't perfect enough.
In fact, I was so freaking happy being with him.
He treat me so good. He makes me feel warm every second.
He cares about me and I can feel it.
He was so sweet. He has a sweet smile on his face.
The way he kiss, the way he hold me was just so damn sweet. Is hard to explain. hmmm..
Although he's not so that handsome enough, naughty, evil, ''dan chun'', kinda short but tall than me xD,sry to say tat..=X but he has a good side which have to realize deeply,which he only show his good side when he with a person who are good to him.But..I still love u. I love you and please trust me that I love you.
Although his love to me wasn't much enough for me. I believe that someday your love to me would be better than today.
I love you my dear. :D

Is December. I wish I could celebrate Christmas with him if there is a chance.
Hopefully can build a sweet memory between me and him within this month.
This is the last month within this year.
I hope this December I could get things done perfectly.

Next month which mean next year gonna be my final examination. ARGH!! T__T
I haven start study yet.
This time, I'm not going to be dump like preciously in my STPM.
I gonna study hard to get 3.00CPGA. ><
wish I can do it.