Sunday, January 29, 2012

Complicated life

Sometimes things are hard to control.
Everyone had a dream and so do I.
The reason is because I born in a very complicated family.
My life are totally complicated.
For the truth, I really wanna leave this place.
But of course, I will back to my hometown and visit my friends and family
My parents do not support me at all.
They just gave me a damn shit nonsense and negative words to me when I told my mom that I wanna depend on myself and work in west Malaysia. And I was like wtf!? Nah..I dun wanna look at your face and talk to you anymore. Damn.
Yes. I know. Is difficult to depend on myself outside.
To me, nothing is impossible.
I can done things perfect if I wan.
So dun look down on me. I was hate to be look down by anyone.

Baby, I was really sorry for my bad attitude today.
I did not think about your feeling and treated you cold.
Sometimes things just happen too fast.I have to complete three things in a minutes.
Last night, you told me to stay longer with my friend if I wan.
You said you could wait.
But I can't stay longer. My mind told me that I must back before 12am.
Because we quarrel once when I was late for 5 minutes.
Then I never repeat my mistakes anymore because when the clock was point to eleven, I push my friend to back home for their own good and me too. Is all because I wan to back before twelve for you my dear.
I cannot stand with my life my dear.
My mom does not even support on me. My dad was just pretend that nothing happen and was an irresponsible person. So, I dun depend on them. NEVER.
I was scolded by her when I in and out from my house.
That's why my mood was terrible.
I'm so sorry baby. I have try my best to control my feeling but I fail.
I still treat you cold. For u, is not fair bha sometimes , if I treat you like this.
Because you did not done anything wrong.
And I treat u like this suddenly.
I think over and over again. I found that I have done a big big mistakes on you.
I do not care about your feeling. I'm here to apologize.Sincerely.Please forgive me.

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